I know.

How is it? Well, It's hard but I am surviving. Eating healthy is really tough but I know I can do this. Of course there are some times when I go to the supermarket and then all I can see are unhealthy foods. All i can see is chocolates. EVERYWHERE. Ok, I know a chocolate bar is not that bad if you look after how much you eat. But usually for me, I can eat 2 bars of chocolate a day. That's how I love chocolates. And which is not weird why I am having hard time avoiding them right now.

I need some help! To surive this obstacle. I need this. Cause I want to feel healthy.

DECIDED!

Now is the time.. Since the year 2013 is almost done. I decided that I will have a lifestyle change. And I am dang serious this time! I need this! I need to do this! I can't be like this for the rest of my life. I need to change cause I want to live healthy! I want to be better! 

So here is the plan. 

1. I will be cleaning up my room and I will throw all of the things that are not good for me. For example, maybe I can find some chocolates that are stack up in case I am craving something sweet. I will also be throwing some drinks.

2. I need to do a healthy meal everyday! This can be hard because I am living with my family who will be eating normal foods. But I will not give up. I will do this. Maybe I can also convince them to get in a healthy lifestyle. Who knows?

3. I will be doing some motion everyday! It doesn't matter whether it's freezing cold outside or hot. There are always some sort of alternatives. Like for example when it's freazong outside, You can always do some excersice inside. I will go to the gym! I will do pilates!

In New Year's Eve I will be partying my ass off. And then at the end I will be developing to a better human being. I need to be strong. I know I can do this, I just need to believe in myself. I know this will really be hard, Like really hard but this is for me. This will be for my benefit. I am doing this for me, just for myself.

And that is my New Year's Resolution. The first resolution that I will make sure I will make it happen. 

Evolving to a new, better human being.

Is this help??

Some Life hacks ;)

http://www.lifehack.org/articles/lifestyle/100-life-hacks-that-make-life-easier.html

I've tired the Baking soda while boiling the eggs.. And I can say that it does really work..

Expanding my knowledge

Mundane;

1: of, relating to, or characteristic of the world

2: characterized by the practical, transitory, and ordinary 

Sacrifice

To Love is to destroy. And to be the one that's loved, is to be one that's destroyed.

Resolutions..

Every year there are a lot of resolution list being made. But how many are being followed, How many list have broke.. I, myself, already have some resolutions, I am tellling myself that I really need to follow my list because I need to develop. I can't be like this for the rest of my life. There are just some things that are really hard to change specially when you've been on that stage for the longest time.

You have to develop, You have to grow as a person. I believe in you.

gotta be good again...

Is it just the time goes to fast or it's me who is really slow? Does time really can be fast? Lately, I've been spending too much time in the Internet.. I have this addiction right now in the social media. Ok, I had it long ago but not this serious. I mean like I can spend hours in my laptop. I watch some series, I watch some in YouTube. After I get tired with my laptop I will transfer to my phone.. There comes the Instagram, Twitter, and Tumblr. And then I will end up again in my laptop.. Like now.

I don't have time now to read some books like I usually do.. I guess it's also because I am working now. My time is mainly working and then some time to rest then the next morning I will be working again..

I really want to go back to my old rutine. Check my Facebook, my mail, watch a little on YouTube. And then look if there is something new in Instagram and Twitter. Then when I am in bed already I will be reading a good book, so I can get some good sleep.

But change is good right? There are just cases that you need some change in your life. I mean I can't have the same rutine for the rest of my life. That will be really boring.

Internet is not that bad actually.. I learned so much.. Some tricks ;) I will tell you more later..

What wait??? Is it really not that bad or I am just making an excuse for myself..

When were you when I needed you.

Words, where are you now when I needed you. This morning I had something in my mind that I really wanted to write about and to share it to you. But I have to work and plus I was late so i haven't got the time to write it down in a piece of papper. So right now I sat here for almost an hour, No words came and that thing in my mind just flew away and decided not to come back.

Blank. Period. Milkyway. Galaxy. Black hole.

Kindness..

The time of the year when our selfishness disappears. Everyone spends their time buying stuffs, spending a lot, and even hanging around at a crowded mall just to make someone happy. It's that time of the year when wishes usually come true. It's a loving holiday, Christmas. 

Last week, I went to the mall. And there was this Grandma, She is having a hard time buying some things because it was too crowded for her but she still struggles to complete the wishlist she was holding. I can tell the list was long. She stood beside me, she was so confused with all the mascaras in front of her. She was looking for a "Max Factor False Lash Effect Mascara" so the salesperson showed her where it is. Without hesitation (I mean without looking at the prize) she took it and marked the list with a check marked. 

"This year I am my Grandchild's Santa Claus"

Everything is going well.

Christmas is coming. But I honestly is still not in the christmassy feeling. I already bought some presents for my family and friends, I've redecorated my room, in a much more festive set but still not a glimpse of christmassy spark. Well maybe while I was fixing my room but after that hour it vanished into the thin air. Maybe it's because all I've done this week is to work. And it's my reason also by not posting for the past 5 days. I've been working so hard. I've been busy for the past 5 conseccutive days. Tomorrow is my last day of working for 5 days and then I will be having my 5 days break and then next week I will be working again for 5 days (whole day). Plus I will also be working in 24th of December. But it's not a biggy cause I will still be celebrating Christmas at home. Maybe you thought I am crazy by accepting that day to work. But I was just so curious how do they celebrate Christmas in a retirement house. Will their families get them so they can celebrate the holidays together? or they will just visit them in the morning to give presents?

I also wanted to celebrate my Christmas with them. I feel like they are already a part of my life, like my half family. Actually I am thinking of buying them some gifts but I don't know what to give them. I better think fast cause I just have five days of free time before I get busy again.

There are so many things to do. I am working. I am studying at the same time. Yes, I am studying. What I meant by that is that I am currently reading some stuffs to get my "Medicine License" and my "Driving License". So there are so many things to learn but there are just little time after work. I basically lay on my bed at the moment I always come home. And then I am out. But this day I got the chance to end pretty early!  But tomorrow is another day.

Oh better get going. I need to study :D