the sky was screaming with colors



It's been a while

I has been 5 months since we broke up and it's been 1 month we've not been talking with each other. It's been very complicated betwwen the two of us. And here i am right now wondering how is he?? how have he been?? It's not that i want to go back together with him.. (i don't think he want either) Ofcourse, we've been together for 1 year and 3 months so i will not lie that i don't care how is he today because honestly speaking i still care. Yeah, I still care but not the care i had once for him ( i mean when we were still together). Right now, I am maybe more concern about him like a friend maybe or something i can't explain or understand myself.. I have so many questions.. questions i know that only him can answer.. Sometimes i still can remember our conversations and i will not deny it until now they makes me smile.. i guess those memories will not easily fade specially when the one person in those memories haave been the most precious on that span of time. He knew everything about me without me not saying to much to him. That is one of his ability. OK! enough about digging the past.. It's all over now. Don't dig in again to those pain you have suffered. Let them heal.

I guess i just wanted to say that i miss him and i do still care for him..

and then you came

It feels so different...

I just imagine how much time i can have if i will be just focusing on me. I mean i have experince having a bóyfriend for 1 year and more and i can feel it myself that i haven't got no time for myself. I haven't got no time for me to care about how am i doing. When i was still with my ex I can feel that time just flies and i haven't got anything of it but now i feel like i have all the time in the world to have fun and to enjoy what i am right now and feel ever minute of what i am doing. I feel so free and i feel that nobody can stop me of what i am doing because i don't need to care about what other people think. It is just me who is just deciding now for myself..

It feels so comfortable and i honestly enjoying it for now but who knows maybe i will change mind tomorrow or next week or next month but right now i feel like i am still enjoying this. i want to be selfish this time..

those hair!!

i feel like doing it..

and

bungy jumping!

honesty...

My vacation in the Philippines was worth very hour i spent on the plane!!

I went all out, 

I became bad, I became good, I became smarter, I became inspired, I became EVERYTHING you maybe can think of.. HONESTLY.... i wouldn't say everything but let this pictures say everything...

home sweet home!

I finally came home in Sweden! After a month in the Philippines i finally back here in the cold place.. When i came home the temperature surpriced me with -15 outside... and ofcourse i am dont have winter clothes or jacket with me because i came from a very hot land so i just have very thin jacket with me and just converse!! so that's why i feel really bad today!! i was really planning to go to school today cause i know i missed a lot but my body is still not ready to go outside..

By the way... it feels so good when you know you have 2 houses in different land!! I have a home in the Philippines and here in Sweden... i didn't care how long i have to travel just to visit my other home because it's worth it!!

This year i started to travel a lot... which i hope will continue for the rest of the year!! In march i will be going to the Turkey!!! i am really looking forward to many more trips!!

speed is really about convenience

A big OMG!! is just what i can say! ok i will explain it... here in the Philippines one of the common transportation is the JEEPNEY and it do look like this one..

BUT wait!! the exciting part is ofcourse not all jeepney's looks like that there are some which are very colorful the jeepney that i posted above is a traditional one the modern one is this!

see the big difference!! and guess what i want to ride EVERYTIME!! of course it's the modern jeepney which we call "PATOK" jeepney's you know why!!!

BECAUSE !!!

• They have speed!! ( when you ride with them you can reach your destination in 10 minutes which maybe can be 20 minutes when you ride with the traditional one)
• It feels you are in a disco inside! (they always plays loud music)
• It always feels you are in a car racing (I MEAN EVERYTIME!!)
• I love their songs! 
• I love how they look (it's so colorful and lively)
• I love the drivers! (cause everytime they drive in a big highway they will push their limits in driving! DRIVERS LOVES ADRENALINE!!)
• Drivers don't like traffic so they really avoid traffics!! (which i really love about them!)

THIS IS ONE OF THE THINGS IN THE PHILIPPINES THAT I WILL REALLY MISS!! I LOVE RIDING WITH FAST CARS!!! OMG!! HAHAHHAHAHA

my first!

Say Hello to my one of a kind baby :''>

My first limited collection of converse :">

here i come again!

so! so! so! im back in the manila!! i just got home a while ago i will be going back to Sweden soon.. and i am so sorry cause i still not uploaded some videos and not either picture cause i've been very busy this past days so i haven't got a chance to edit the videos i filmed i can't promise i can show it all to you this week either cause i will be rushing things up this week.. but as soon as i had time to fix things up i will be paying all my debt to you guys!! :D so see you again next time :DD

Me and my Aunt 

keep it up

FALL DOWN SEVEN, STAND UP EIGHT 

some time...

well well well!! as all of you know i am right now in CEBU i will be staying here until jan. 08 so i will not be updating until then we will be maybe going also to BOHOL i hope so.. if the weather will be better because there is another typhon that i coming so i hope it will not be so hard so we can travel .. but by the way i took some pictures too while we are on the way here to CEBU so stay tuned to that one also.. i have so many things to show you guys but i can't fixed them right now but i will sure show them to you!! but yeah! just wait for them and they will sure come..

We came from Luzon and now we are in Visayas and we road travel by land which mean we travel by buss and ship.. so you can imagine how far and how many hours we spent just to go here in cebu

our next stop is here in Bohol 

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this is what i want to see there and my goal in our trip in Bohol. This place is called Chocolate Hills :D 

This is also one of my goal to see!! This is one of a kind animal here so i am really hoping to see this! this animal is calles Tarsier. :D

Pyrotechnics

Fireworks! 

deep inside

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!! hope you all had a wonderful first day of the year!!! I had a wonderful new year with my childhood friends!! For the first time i lit up a firecracker. It was scary and i was so scared to death because there had been so many incident that some children been hurt because of lightening up firecrackers. But in my case after i lit up the firecracker i literally ran so far away so quickly that i can and far as possible just to be safe ;D

Celebrating New year again in Philippines makes me feel so warm inside.. This may sounds so weird and that i am nationalist but I LOVE THAT I AM A PINAY!! At first i was a little bit disappointed because my first week here i felt that i don't belong here in some ways i can feel it myself that things changed, people changed and one of them is me.. but later on the pinay inside of me came out and i feel that i do still belong and some part of me want to stay more time here..

I record some videos of the fireworks we had i will edit it first because i recorded them separately so i will just put them together so you can all see it :DD