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Slowly but surely

Having a glimpse of my short future plans.. maybe for this coming 2 yrs. And as of now it's looking good. Everything is going as I expected it to be and I am very happy and satisfied of my situation now. It maybe have a slow progression but I am very contented of what I have and doing right now. My plans are coming true! Like having a driving license.

When you like something, you have to work hard to get it! Don't let others just give it to you easy. It feels much more deserving when you really worked hard to get what you want!

Keep it up

Being jealous is normal thing. Everyone gets jealous. Don't feel bad about it. It's just what we humans are made of full of emotions. Whether you like it or not it's just the way it is.. But jealousy can lead us to alot of different directions. It really depends on how you let jealousy leads the way you think. So be carefull. Don't let it drag you to things that will force you to destroy some things you really cherish like .. YOURSELF!

You just came at the right time

Look! LOOK!!! what I got! This really made my day! ;D 

TACK MIKAAA!!

Getting attached..

There is just one problem.. It's getting attached to someone you really need to avoid to be attached with.. It's not something that's really bad to be attached with but it's more of when you get too close there are a big chance that you will really get affected. I know it's the part of the possiblities I accepted but i never thought it will affect me this bad.. I thought I was ready to faced this but in the end IM NOT.. How shall I face the others without showing that I am affected... They all lived together and then one day one of them suddenly says goodbye... so sudden.. I may not have took good care of her that much but she was the one that made me really good at what i do.. She helped me so much and she was really kind to me.. she was patient with me specially when I was just starting learning things.. She let me to took good care of her.. And then now she just left.. I never have thought of this to happen this early...




I'll gonna miss you...

hope you don't get tired..

 

 

Gotta believe in yourself

Being in-love with someone is a risk but as they said you will never learn things when you don't take risks.

Fights between the two sides can never be avoided.. It's just how things goes. It's a way of knowing each other. Fighting is not a bad thing as long as you finish your day understanding each other. In a realtionship it's more of a give and take. It's not good if it's onle one is giving and the only one is just taking. Your must work with your relationship together cause if only one is showing his/her effort it might not end well cause in some point the one fighting for it will get tired and will just give up giving so much while not receiving anything from the other person. So you have to work together like a team. There maybe some times when things are just getting out of hand. You feel like giving up on the person you love.. Just think for a moment and think over things why you love that person. Don't decide on things while you are angry or sad or disappointed cause in the end you will regret what you have said or decided after the fight. For me the best thing is to cool things out. Shouting at each other will not solve the problem. You will not understand each other cause the only thing running in your mind is you want her/him to undestand your point but the other person wants the same thing.. You are just spitting out words the other person are not willing to listen.. So take a moment and take a breathe. Talk right after the both of you have calm down.

Little technique: I honestly don't know if this will work but i have read in some paper that when you are having a fight and no one wants to give a time for the other person to say his/her side. Do this: Get something that you can use it doesn't matter what thing is it. It will represent that when you are holding it you are the one who will talk and when you are done put it down and let your partner get it and let him/her talk. It's more of showing respect for each other.

This is the hardest part. Let's face the reality. Unfortunately, not all relationships work as you might want it to be. There are not always happily ever after. Sometimes you are just not match for each other or as other calls it "that you are not meant to be". It's just the way it is. Dont push it. If it's not working after all the possible things you have tried saving your realtionship with your partner then it's just the way it is. It may sound bias after I told you not to give up but sometimes you can't just prevent it after the hard work both sides have made.But don't lose hope beliee in yourself that someday there will be someone again who will dearly care for you and truly love you.

Moving on maybe is the hardest part after break- ups. I, myself have been on a break up. This is not to scare you anything but i will really hurt. You will feel so insecure and bad about yourself. You will feel that it maybe the end of it that no one will never love you again the way he/she loved you. It's not true! There will be some for surely who will love you. Your family loves you, your friends. It may not be the love you are searching but accpet the love they are offering to you cause I am sure it will help to earn again the confidence to face the world again. You are not alone. The key about moving on is time. Don't push yourself . When you feel like crying then cry. There is nothing wrong about crying. Feel sad cause it's better to let it all out than keeping it all by yourself. Don't make yourself suffer by not letting it go. Moving on may vary for all of us. It is depending on how you loved the person and how long have you been togehter. But the only thing you can do is let time past, be busy and don't let it consume all of you. You have to move one.

After a strong storm, there will always be a rainbow afterwards which will put hope and a smile on your face.

Did I really knew you?

How can you say that yo really knew your friend? I know that we've spent so much time together that it almost feels that I really knew you but did I really knew you? We grew together.. grew like full grown-ups.. It might not have been the longest time spending together but we made so much memories that I can say that I know my friend.. But right now.. I don't know if I am judging you or I just know you too well that I know your actions and the way you are thinking.. Even you are so far away.. I am afraid of what might happen to you..

Be careful my friend..

Brutal

Yestersday.. Was both a brutal and fun day! Brutal cause I had a time to practice how to drive.. Don't get me wrong practicing my driving skills is not brutal.. The brutal was my teacher, My father.. Yepp!! We trained on driving the car backwards in a very little way.. and when I mean little way is that when you reverse the wrong way the car will literally fell on the ditch/edge.. And it's not just a small ditch it was really big that when your car fell on it you need to have a bigger car to pull the car.. I was so scared that the car will fell.. My father was so brutal that he just sat beside me not even looking at the side mirrors if i am doing right.. When i was asking him if I was doing the right thing all he said was " I DON'T KNOW CAUSE YOU ARE THE ONE DRIVING" ... By the way it was my first time doing that I mean driving backwards and have to look at the side mirror to drive.. It was nerve-racking experince but the good thing is I am really learning :)

The fun part is that we have some quality time and I had a time to have some break from work cause I have been working too much that i was really tired.. So I was grateful for yesterday it was just the day I needed. My brother's friend Makky was there also and even my half-sister. So it was a perfect day-off.

That's the price you need to pay

Last past few weeks i was thinking if i did the right choice of not studying right after I grduated. Did I earned something from it or was it just a waste of time. Right after I graduated I was really damn sure that I wanted to have a break from school, A break from all the pressure the school have gave me from the past years. I was having second thoughts about whether I can handle the University or not. This may shows that I was playing the safe part of it but I decided not to go on something I am having second thoughts with. This is something I really need to think over... I thought so.. Maybe I was thinking about things for far too long..

It may sound that I was not sure about what path I suppose to choose but believe it or not I am sure of what I want to do or what work I might have after the University.. The only thing I was not sure of is how will I survive in a another city with my own apartment.. having to pay and to handle my own needs without having saved money on my pocket. I know I can borrow some money but I wanted to avoid borrowing or atleast borrow small as possible. I don't want to have a really big debt after I gradated when I am not sure whether I will have a job to pay it.

So here I am working part time job and searching for more job to save money! To afford to transfer from another city and possibly get a driving license before transferring! I will not deny that I really miss going back to school cause I really enjoy going back to school even there are times I just wanted to run away from it. Those parts are just parts of the school where you can't avoid. But I am also grateful that I kinda made the right decision cause right now I have time to secure all the things I was having thoughts about. But at the same time I feel really jealous when I see my friends who transfered into another city and having a great time.

What I tell to myself?? Well my time will come.. It will come.. I just need to work right now to reached what i want.