am i really over him??

what will happen if i will ever meet him in personal?? will i feel something or nothing at all.. i can't answer yes and i cant even answer it with a no so let me say I DONT KNOW!! having a relationship with someone you really loved is not so easy to forget.. specially when that person meant the world to you not for so long time.. the person who gives you happiness.. it's not easy.. i will tell you that.. but as the other says time will help you to heal everything :) just wait for the right time you dont have to rush thingsjust let it flow out in your system cause you will not feel the same feelings for the rest of your life.. it will eventually fly away and vanish in thin air..

Use every experince you had to make you stronger..

IT'S ALL GONNA BE ALRIGHT

Here i come!!

My dreams are slowly coming true!! who would have though.. in March i will flying to TURKEY!!! it's my time to travel!! this will be just the beginning i am sure there will be a lot more.. just keep on dreaming cause dreaming is free all you have to do is make a list of your dreams and make it come true one by one ;) '

are we close??

Ok! As you all know i will be going to the philippines this coming December. Honeestly i can't wait to see my friends and my relatives that i haven't seen for 4 yrs. I love going back to the Philippines ofcourse who doesn't like going back to your homeland but there are just some things that makes me sad, dissappointed and plus little angry.. Whenever i log in on my facebook HE pops out and always asking first how am i and then second thing he will ask is when will i be going back to the philippines and when i saw this question i already know what he will say next and just what would it be!! Ofcourse!! he will be telling me to bring some gifts from sweden because i am from sweden! I dont want to say some bad things about my own country..

but it just feels wrong when some people feel you are close with someone just because they are from other country! but when i am still in the philippines he doesn't even talked to me so please just stop it YOU ANNOYS ME!

YOU!

morning

gnun b lagi?

Ngaun n lng ulit ako mgsulat sa tagalog.. gs2 ko lng kc sana mailabas ung nararamdaman ko, gs2 ko lng ilabas ung mga naiisip ko.. kc gnito un ma isang lalaki akong super minahal nung una hndi ko akalain n mapapamhal ako ng sobra sknya tumagal kmi ng 1 yr. 3 months. Oo wla n kmi ngaun mga 3 months n rin kming wla inaamin ko ung mga unang buwan ng pghihiwlay nmin ang skit skit.. sobrang sakit! ito ung kaunahang time n naramdaman ko un.. kc sya p lng tlga ung kauna unahan n lalaking sobra kong minahl.. khit ngaun masakit p rin pero hndi n kcing sakit ng mga unang buwan.. at salamat un sa mga taong mga nkausap ko n sobrng nka2long pra maalis ung sakit.. pero nsa sarili ko un kung gs2 ko n maalis ung skit n un eh kc ako ung nkakaalm ng sarili ko.. Ngaun mdyo masakit p rin pero alam ko n dating din ung time n tlgang hndi n tlga masakit sa twing nkikita ko n may post sa fb n hndi ko alam pra knino..

4 n arw n ako hndi nkikipgusap saknya oo miss n miss ko n cya pero pinipilit ko ung sarili ko n hndi cya isipin pero aaminin ko sobrang hirap kc sa isang taon at 3 buwan ko cyang kausap sknya lng naikot mundo ko sa twing aalis ako ir sa twing may pupuntahan ako alam nia tpos pg aalis ako kausap ko rin cya sa phone ko so khit n san man ako pumunta ksama ko tlga cya pero ngaun ibng iba n.. kc hndi n cya parte ng arw ko at hndi ko alam kung ano n ako pra sknya.. marami ako nririnig tungkol sa mga ibng tao kung ano nagyayari pgtpos nio mghiwlay cbi nila pg ang dlwang tao daw n sobra ng mahalan tpos bgla ng hiwlay hndi daw kaya mging mgkaibigan agd agd pero kung after nmn ng pghihiwlay nio ay nging mgkaibigan agd kau ibig daw cbhn hndi nio tlga minhal ng sobra ng isat isa kaya kaya nio agd tnggpin n hanggang mgkaibigan nlng tlga kau..

ewn ko pero cguro nga tottoo un kc nung nghiwalay kmi khit ni isang arw hndi ko cya tinuring n kaibigan kc pra skin cya p rin ung lalaking mnahal ko ng sobra p sa sarili ko.. Oo nung mnhal ko cya bnigay ko lht ng pgmmhal ko sknya wla n ako tinira sa sarili ko alam ko n mali pero hndi ko n kc inisip sarili ko eh mhlaga n masaya ako kc kmi at alam ko n mhal nia ako at alam ko n kming dlwa lng ang iniisip nia at iniisp ko.. kya nung nghiwlay kmi sobrng sakit.. marami ng payo skin n dpat hndi ko daw bngay sknya lhat kc ddpat mgtira ako ng para sa sarili ko pero huli n.. hndi ko alam kelan ko bngay sknya lht ng pgmmhal ko.. bsta alam ko lng n mas mhal ko cya kesa sa sarili ko n mas iniitindi ko cya kesa sa kasayahan ko..

nung ng hiwlay kmi kasiyahn nia p rin iniitindi ko.. wla ako pakiaalam kung nasasaktan n ako ng sobra n lagi n lng ako umiiyak sa gabi.. pero bsta masaya cya ok n rin un skin.. ngaun iniisp ko nkalimutan n nia kaya ung mga time n mgkasama kmi n kming dlwa lng nguusap sa buong arw.. ano kaya nararamdaman nia ngaun n hndi n ako ng ol ng 4 n arw?? may iba n kaya cyng gs2?? may iba n kaya pumalit skn sa puso nia?? ung parte ko b sa puso nia dati mananatili un dun or mattabunan n ng iba at sa kahuliahan makalimutan nia ako?? lagi b ako may pwesto sa puso nia?? or wla n tlga??

marami ako gs2ng itanong sknya pero prng ayw ko mlaman ung mga sagot kc nattkot ako eh.. natatakot ako n masaktan ulit ako.. takot ako n bka wla n tlga akong pwesto sa puso nia at alam ko n masasaktan ako.. pero kung cbhn nia n meron p rin ako pwesto sa puso nia nattkot nmn din ako n patuloy p rin ako umasa n mgiging kmi p rin pero sa kahulihan hndi rin nmn pla kmi..

akala ko hndi n ako mgka ligtas sa sakit pero nakakpgod din kc lumaban.. lalo n ung tao n pinglalaban mo hndi n rin lumalaban.. ung pra bng ayw n nia lumaban kaya pra san p ung pakikipglaban ko kung ako n lng ung lumalaban... nakakapgod n isa n lng ung ngpapakita n mhal p rin nia ung isa.. sobrng sakit.. kaya cguro nauntog ako at naisip ko n alam mo tama n kc wla n dapt ipglaban.. kc wla n cya.. ayw n nia sau..wag mo n lng ipilit sarili mo sa isng tao n ayw n nia sau isipn mo n lng maraming tao n gs2 k isa n dun ang kaibigan mo so enjoy mo n lng makakaya mo rin yn gmitin mo itong nraramdaman mo pra mging malakas k p lalo pra kung sa susunod alam mo n ggwin mo mas mlakas k n.. makakaya mo khit n ano p yn...

future inks ;D

Have you ever??

So.. this morning , I was walking in the hallway on my way to my locker.. And then in front me i saw this 2 guys walking in the opposite direction so here comes the scenario.. SO! GUY A and GUY B was walking excatly the opposite direction i am going. Thankful GUY A went to the library and then GUY B coming still the opposite direction.. I know that we will meet and bump in each other of neither him nor me changed the direction a little bit.

So, I decided to move first so I move a little to my left so that he can pass in my right side BUT he also moved a little to his right so we still gonna meet so i moved again instead to my right but! again he moved to his left ...

In the end we still bump in each other!! -.-' it's so embarassing to come to the point when both of you don't know which the other one will go and both looks like stupid xD

which one changed??

Did i changed or is it you that change.. cause you know what right now neither of us are on the same page or maybe we are ona different book now I hope not cause it will be the worst.. I feel like we are back to strangers.. We see each other but we don't talk with each other for a very long time really long time!! so now who is  who.. who changed, who didn't, who ran with Mr. Time and who crawl with the Mr.Time.. It's just half a year we've not been talking with each other but it feels like a decade we haven't talked with each other I wonder why we end up like this..

One conversation with you might change everything or this might not effect anything.

You go girl!!

Energy to the Highest Level!!!

wiihoo!!

Just got home! and guess what where i have been.. We went to the cinema and watched Breaking Dawn Part 2 OMG! It was so good!! I will put some spoiler hahaha but I can say that this last part is the only part that was better than the book.  I LOVE IT!!

HOHOHO!

Obsession

HOHOHO! so be ready cause right know i reall have obsession with GIF's.. Enough with the drama and let the party begin!

NOTE: I don't own any of them ;D

 

Everyone deserves to be happy

HOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!

Happy Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY!!! I MISS YOU!!



Almost..

The worst part is almost over! Wait for me and I will come back like brandnew

What if

When someone ask me about what kind of supernatural powers i would choose to have. And I always says i want to read other peoples minds just like Edward in Twilight! Here am I again thinking about it. What if one day i just woke up having these power. Honestly, I will really enjoy it, like think you don't need to ask people what they were thinking. I am a type of person that like to stare at people and think what they are thinking. I just want to try to peek on their minds and read not all but some of the interesting one.

But would it not be to much information in my brain and in the end my brain will explode because of it. I will also be having their problems and then i will start minding their problems instead of sloving my own issues. It will end up not having me time for myself.

Reading minds can also result on crossing the line of someones privacy. But i really want to read them! No one needs to know about me reading minds it will be my little secret ;D

My love

My love is like a star. You can't always see me but you know that I'm always there..

there go i again.

Why do i keep destroying things around me!!

am i running too slow?

What will i be doing after 10 yrs from now?? Well on that time i will already be 29  yrs old! OMG! Honestly i haven't though that long i have though of 5 yrs from now but not 10. Well anyways my answer will probably be that i am in some other land and discovering new things, just enjoying my life. I want to travel around the world and learn different stuffs but why i feel like i am really planning so slow.. For some they are already planning to have a family.. well they have their own boyfriends so maybe it is natural to think like that.. but 29 yrs old.. is it the right age to think about family or it is to late to have a family.. Well one thing i am sure is that i want to travel around the world try new things whether i am with my boyfriend, or fiance, or husband or my own family, or my friends or me alone..

I guess i am just not ready to think about that long future ahead of me. That is a long time and let's take baby steps and enjoy every second of the present.

which is which

Why i came to this point?? Everything is so complicated with you! I don't know what to expect and how to react on things.. how should i treat you?? cause the truth is you move me, you effects me.

Some days you treat me on a very special way like you want to show me that you still like me and i will not lie i like it! who doesnt like being treated special. You treat me so kindly.. I know i musn't say this but honestly everytime your like that i was thinking about what did we do to loss the spark between us or maybe already in the start there were no spark at all. And you can make my stomach turn upside down. You know me too much that you know what to say for me to fall for you again.. is it right that way?

BUT Some days you treat me really cold like we are from two different planets, like strangers and i hate it! I don't know if sometimes you just dont care about me or what but i sometimes got that feeling  that you dont want me talking to you like you just want me here.. But is it better this way? to treat each other strangers so both sides can move on??