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TO ALL!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!! hope you had a wonderful day yesterday

It really is different in the Philippines :DDD

BOOM!

<3

can i make you mine???

SUPER DUPER LOVE THIS BOYS!!!!

party peeppss!!!

Last night, we went PARTY!! we went to eastwood city. It is literally place where you can shop and at the same time go to club and party! so we choose to went there and party.. We had a reunion with my old batch mates in my school and also some of our very old friends so it was really fun cause we had so many to talked about so we can catch up with each other :D we also had some games the loser will drink :DD

Right now i still have a little bit of hangover but it was really fun last night :DDD here is a picture of the place we went and then i will later put some pictures from the party when someone already put them online..

I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS!!! this taste really good!! we drank this one last night..

so scary..

i want you to know that i am really scared when you talked to me about that stuffs specially those things are the things i am really avoiding cause i honestly don't know what to say and how to react.. 

FOOD TRIP!!!

it will just go on

 NEW! NEW!

Simbang Gabi.. (Mass at Night)

one of the things i miss in the Philippines is this one

Ok i am not a super duper religious person but this is one thing i really love in the Philippines. it is so nice having this tradition. This tradition is called Simbang Gabi (night mass). It is a night mass every December. They have a saying that when you completed all the 9 days of night masses your wish will come true. honestly i never completed the 9 masses ha ha this year i've been there only once OOPPSSS!! but one good thing with this tradition is this made you warm inside. Once you are already inside the church the feeling of christmas is really in the air so i really love the environment inside the church. 

so many changes..

so I arrived in the Philippines Dec. 12. Already in the airport i can feel the warm weather ahead of me. It's so warm i guess it is 32 celcius right now.. but by the way back to my first day the day after i just spend my whole day with my mother side's relatives.. I missed them so much that the whole day was spend just catching up with each other and telling some old memories we can't forget and then telling some stories we missed..

the next day i spent my day with my childhood friends so talked and laughed but as time flows you can feel the gap between us.. there are so many things that changes and I don't know how to catch up cause i can feel that they change a lot or am i the one who change so much that we feel so distant with each other.. honestly i hate it.. cause i know that they've been my friends since i was born and ofcourse until now but i just feel different around them.. I don't like this feeling...

better late than never

sorry i didn't blogg thiis week cause i still have a little problem with our internet connection but as soon as it's ok i will be back and update you guys of how am i doing :DD

on my way to adventure!

Right now I am sitting in the airport just waiting for my flight :D I can't imagine it!! I am flying alone for the first time and as of this moment it's going smoothly as i never expected but i am greatful that everything when smoothly I will update you more guys later for more detailed information about how my day started ;DD SEE YAH!!

you can never prevent it..

YOU DESTROYED IT!! I've done everything for you to make it alright for the both of us but i don't know it feels like you are just making things so complicated that make other things more complicated! You never really listen to me.. so what's the point of explaning things to you.. we both are just being tired arguing everytime.. i was not lying... you are the one who must know me afterwe've been together so long ang you said it yourself that you know me so much.. so if you really know me why can you listen to other peoples gossips about me and not listen to my explanation and why can't you belive me that I AM NOT LYING! for f***k SAKE!! you should know me better than anyone!!

now i am just tired of this things.. you had my trust but it was you who doesn't trust me.. you said it yourself one time that never listen to other peoples gossips cause they don't know us so it's better not to listen.. I never listen to others gossip cause you know WHY?? IT IS YOU WHO TOLD ME NOT TO CAUSE YOU SAID THAT I SHOULD NOT LISTEN TO THEM BUT INSTEAD I SHOULD LISTEN TO YOU!! AND I KNOW YOU!! so other people can't change my point of view about you.. but you who changed so quickly just listened to them.. and never though of the past things you said yourself.. you just threw the things we have built for not so long time.. so i guess this is really the end fo it.. I tried my best..

DAMN!!

OK!! look why i can't do it!!! i am so shy that i don't dare to have a proper conversation with him!! like come on!!! i want to know him and i know the only way to know him is to talk to him properly i kinda like him and it seems like he likes me too!! but i don't know!! i dont like expecting things speciall when it comes to this kind of things because i don't want to be disappointed and it is so embarassing!!! but what if he does reall like me but neither of us wants to make the first move what should i do??? am i thingking wrong now about him liking me or something I DON'T KNOW!!

at this very right moment the question is should i add him in FACEBOOK?? or should i wait him to add me instead??? GRRRR i don't like this situation

no. no. no

Don't deny it cause there's no point hiding it.. Just be honest and let it all out.

am i really over him??

what will happen if i will ever meet him in personal?? will i feel something or nothing at all.. i can't answer yes and i cant even answer it with a no so let me say I DONT KNOW!! having a relationship with someone you really loved is not so easy to forget.. specially when that person meant the world to you not for so long time.. the person who gives you happiness.. it's not easy.. i will tell you that.. but as the other says time will help you to heal everything :) just wait for the right time you dont have to rush thingsjust let it flow out in your system cause you will not feel the same feelings for the rest of your life.. it will eventually fly away and vanish in thin air..

Use every experince you had to make you stronger..

IT'S ALL GONNA BE ALRIGHT

Here i come!!

My dreams are slowly coming true!! who would have though.. in March i will flying to TURKEY!!! it's my time to travel!! this will be just the beginning i am sure there will be a lot more.. just keep on dreaming cause dreaming is free all you have to do is make a list of your dreams and make it come true one by one ;) '

are we close??

Ok! As you all know i will be going to the philippines this coming December. Honeestly i can't wait to see my friends and my relatives that i haven't seen for 4 yrs. I love going back to the Philippines ofcourse who doesn't like going back to your homeland but there are just some things that makes me sad, dissappointed and plus little angry.. Whenever i log in on my facebook HE pops out and always asking first how am i and then second thing he will ask is when will i be going back to the philippines and when i saw this question i already know what he will say next and just what would it be!! Ofcourse!! he will be telling me to bring some gifts from sweden because i am from sweden! I dont want to say some bad things about my own country..

but it just feels wrong when some people feel you are close with someone just because they are from other country! but when i am still in the philippines he doesn't even talked to me so please just stop it YOU ANNOYS ME!

YOU!

morning

gnun b lagi?

Ngaun n lng ulit ako mgsulat sa tagalog.. gs2 ko lng kc sana mailabas ung nararamdaman ko, gs2 ko lng ilabas ung mga naiisip ko.. kc gnito un ma isang lalaki akong super minahal nung una hndi ko akalain n mapapamhal ako ng sobra sknya tumagal kmi ng 1 yr. 3 months. Oo wla n kmi ngaun mga 3 months n rin kming wla inaamin ko ung mga unang buwan ng pghihiwlay nmin ang skit skit.. sobrang sakit! ito ung kaunahang time n naramdaman ko un.. kc sya p lng tlga ung kauna unahan n lalaking sobra kong minahl.. khit ngaun masakit p rin pero hndi n kcing sakit ng mga unang buwan.. at salamat un sa mga taong mga nkausap ko n sobrng nka2long pra maalis ung sakit.. pero nsa sarili ko un kung gs2 ko n maalis ung skit n un eh kc ako ung nkakaalm ng sarili ko.. Ngaun mdyo masakit p rin pero alam ko n dating din ung time n tlgang hndi n tlga masakit sa twing nkikita ko n may post sa fb n hndi ko alam pra knino..

4 n arw n ako hndi nkikipgusap saknya oo miss n miss ko n cya pero pinipilit ko ung sarili ko n hndi cya isipin pero aaminin ko sobrang hirap kc sa isang taon at 3 buwan ko cyang kausap sknya lng naikot mundo ko sa twing aalis ako ir sa twing may pupuntahan ako alam nia tpos pg aalis ako kausap ko rin cya sa phone ko so khit n san man ako pumunta ksama ko tlga cya pero ngaun ibng iba n.. kc hndi n cya parte ng arw ko at hndi ko alam kung ano n ako pra sknya.. marami ako nririnig tungkol sa mga ibng tao kung ano nagyayari pgtpos nio mghiwlay cbi nila pg ang dlwang tao daw n sobra ng mahalan tpos bgla ng hiwlay hndi daw kaya mging mgkaibigan agd agd pero kung after nmn ng pghihiwlay nio ay nging mgkaibigan agd kau ibig daw cbhn hndi nio tlga minhal ng sobra ng isat isa kaya kaya nio agd tnggpin n hanggang mgkaibigan nlng tlga kau..

ewn ko pero cguro nga tottoo un kc nung nghiwalay kmi khit ni isang arw hndi ko cya tinuring n kaibigan kc pra skin cya p rin ung lalaking mnahal ko ng sobra p sa sarili ko.. Oo nung mnhal ko cya bnigay ko lht ng pgmmhal ko sknya wla n ako tinira sa sarili ko alam ko n mali pero hndi ko n kc inisip sarili ko eh mhlaga n masaya ako kc kmi at alam ko n mhal nia ako at alam ko n kming dlwa lng ang iniisip nia at iniisp ko.. kya nung nghiwlay kmi sobrng sakit.. marami ng payo skin n dpat hndi ko daw bngay sknya lhat kc ddpat mgtira ako ng para sa sarili ko pero huli n.. hndi ko alam kelan ko bngay sknya lht ng pgmmhal ko.. bsta alam ko lng n mas mhal ko cya kesa sa sarili ko n mas iniitindi ko cya kesa sa kasayahan ko..

nung ng hiwlay kmi kasiyahn nia p rin iniitindi ko.. wla ako pakiaalam kung nasasaktan n ako ng sobra n lagi n lng ako umiiyak sa gabi.. pero bsta masaya cya ok n rin un skin.. ngaun iniisp ko nkalimutan n nia kaya ung mga time n mgkasama kmi n kming dlwa lng nguusap sa buong arw.. ano kaya nararamdaman nia ngaun n hndi n ako ng ol ng 4 n arw?? may iba n kaya cyng gs2?? may iba n kaya pumalit skn sa puso nia?? ung parte ko b sa puso nia dati mananatili un dun or mattabunan n ng iba at sa kahuliahan makalimutan nia ako?? lagi b ako may pwesto sa puso nia?? or wla n tlga??

marami ako gs2ng itanong sknya pero prng ayw ko mlaman ung mga sagot kc nattkot ako eh.. natatakot ako n masaktan ulit ako.. takot ako n bka wla n tlga akong pwesto sa puso nia at alam ko n masasaktan ako.. pero kung cbhn nia n meron p rin ako pwesto sa puso nia nattkot nmn din ako n patuloy p rin ako umasa n mgiging kmi p rin pero sa kahulihan hndi rin nmn pla kmi..

akala ko hndi n ako mgka ligtas sa sakit pero nakakpgod din kc lumaban.. lalo n ung tao n pinglalaban mo hndi n rin lumalaban.. ung pra bng ayw n nia lumaban kaya pra san p ung pakikipglaban ko kung ako n lng ung lumalaban... nakakapgod n isa n lng ung ngpapakita n mhal p rin nia ung isa.. sobrng sakit.. kaya cguro nauntog ako at naisip ko n alam mo tama n kc wla n dapt ipglaban.. kc wla n cya.. ayw n nia sau..wag mo n lng ipilit sarili mo sa isng tao n ayw n nia sau isipn mo n lng maraming tao n gs2 k isa n dun ang kaibigan mo so enjoy mo n lng makakaya mo rin yn gmitin mo itong nraramdaman mo pra mging malakas k p lalo pra kung sa susunod alam mo n ggwin mo mas mlakas k n.. makakaya mo khit n ano p yn...

future inks ;D

Have you ever??

So.. this morning , I was walking in the hallway on my way to my locker.. And then in front me i saw this 2 guys walking in the opposite direction so here comes the scenario.. SO! GUY A and GUY B was walking excatly the opposite direction i am going. Thankful GUY A went to the library and then GUY B coming still the opposite direction.. I know that we will meet and bump in each other of neither him nor me changed the direction a little bit.

So, I decided to move first so I move a little to my left so that he can pass in my right side BUT he also moved a little to his right so we still gonna meet so i moved again instead to my right but! again he moved to his left ...

In the end we still bump in each other!! -.-' it's so embarassing to come to the point when both of you don't know which the other one will go and both looks like stupid xD

which one changed??

Did i changed or is it you that change.. cause you know what right now neither of us are on the same page or maybe we are ona different book now I hope not cause it will be the worst.. I feel like we are back to strangers.. We see each other but we don't talk with each other for a very long time really long time!! so now who is  who.. who changed, who didn't, who ran with Mr. Time and who crawl with the Mr.Time.. It's just half a year we've not been talking with each other but it feels like a decade we haven't talked with each other I wonder why we end up like this..

One conversation with you might change everything or this might not effect anything.

You go girl!!

Energy to the Highest Level!!!

wiihoo!!

Just got home! and guess what where i have been.. We went to the cinema and watched Breaking Dawn Part 2 OMG! It was so good!! I will put some spoiler hahaha but I can say that this last part is the only part that was better than the book.  I LOVE IT!!

HOHOHO!

Obsession

HOHOHO! so be ready cause right know i reall have obsession with GIF's.. Enough with the drama and let the party begin!

NOTE: I don't own any of them ;D

 

Everyone deserves to be happy

HOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!

Happy Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY!!! I MISS YOU!!



Almost..

The worst part is almost over! Wait for me and I will come back like brandnew

What if

When someone ask me about what kind of supernatural powers i would choose to have. And I always says i want to read other peoples minds just like Edward in Twilight! Here am I again thinking about it. What if one day i just woke up having these power. Honestly, I will really enjoy it, like think you don't need to ask people what they were thinking. I am a type of person that like to stare at people and think what they are thinking. I just want to try to peek on their minds and read not all but some of the interesting one.

But would it not be to much information in my brain and in the end my brain will explode because of it. I will also be having their problems and then i will start minding their problems instead of sloving my own issues. It will end up not having me time for myself.

Reading minds can also result on crossing the line of someones privacy. But i really want to read them! No one needs to know about me reading minds it will be my little secret ;D

My love

My love is like a star. You can't always see me but you know that I'm always there..

there go i again.

Why do i keep destroying things around me!!

am i running too slow?

What will i be doing after 10 yrs from now?? Well on that time i will already be 29  yrs old! OMG! Honestly i haven't though that long i have though of 5 yrs from now but not 10. Well anyways my answer will probably be that i am in some other land and discovering new things, just enjoying my life. I want to travel around the world and learn different stuffs but why i feel like i am really planning so slow.. For some they are already planning to have a family.. well they have their own boyfriends so maybe it is natural to think like that.. but 29 yrs old.. is it the right age to think about family or it is to late to have a family.. Well one thing i am sure is that i want to travel around the world try new things whether i am with my boyfriend, or fiance, or husband or my own family, or my friends or me alone..

I guess i am just not ready to think about that long future ahead of me. That is a long time and let's take baby steps and enjoy every second of the present.

which is which

Why i came to this point?? Everything is so complicated with you! I don't know what to expect and how to react on things.. how should i treat you?? cause the truth is you move me, you effects me.

Some days you treat me on a very special way like you want to show me that you still like me and i will not lie i like it! who doesnt like being treated special. You treat me so kindly.. I know i musn't say this but honestly everytime your like that i was thinking about what did we do to loss the spark between us or maybe already in the start there were no spark at all. And you can make my stomach turn upside down. You know me too much that you know what to say for me to fall for you again.. is it right that way?

BUT Some days you treat me really cold like we are from two different planets, like strangers and i hate it! I don't know if sometimes you just dont care about me or what but i sometimes got that feeling  that you dont want me talking to you like you just want me here.. But is it better this way? to treat each other strangers so both sides can move on??

Bullseye!

Like a circle

You treat me like i am someone special but am i really special to you? You treat me so kind, You care about me so much which make things really confusing and scary. I can say that it beats the hell out me. I don't like clear feelings coming from a person. A person who maybe don't know either how he should feel for me.

We maybe both are not sure how we should treat each other. I can't blame him for that cause i am also confused about this thing we have. Do we really have a thing for each other or not? The short version is I don' know!

Am i making him also confused? What if i make him also confused so that he acts confused. You maybe feel also confused now.. It's like a cycle of confusion.

Just go with the flow

After what happen i just find myself going back to you. Even we went through a lot.. I should not be talking to you for my sake or for the sake of both of us..  But right now i don't care about the past the important thing is RIGHT NOW!

should i or should i not

I am sure than you have exprience something like sitting with a couple and you know that they are having a fight or a serious conversation and then they sant speak freely they like because i am there or just someone is there. This morning i sat with a couple i know that they are having a little fight about something.. i can sense it.. i mean in the air of their conversation. and i didn't mean to overheard what they were talking about but yeah i heard somthings so i can say that they are having a little fight maybe a misunderstanding or something.. so here is the dilemma!

What should i do if something like that happen again?

Should i just ignore it and pretend not to pay attention to what they are talking about.
Should i leave without saying anything and respect their privacy.
Should i leave saying a excuse just to leave them alone to have a chat, to give them privacy
Should i stay??

What should I ??

TADA!!

prepare?

PHYSICALLY PREPARE BUT MENTALLY NOT...

The truth

December 11, 2012 I will be going home to my homeland Philippines. Right now I am kinda stress and excited and nervous. Stress because i know there are a lot i need to do before i go to Philippines. I need to buy some stuffs to bring with me for my relatives, I need to have a plan of my time in Philippines cause i don't want to waste some time there. Everything must be clear for me before i go there and everything will just be a disaster. Excited cause it's been 4 years..  MY FRIENDS! MY RELAVITES! just thinking about them makes my stomach turn upside down. But nervousness will always be there.

I am traveling alone which is the first time for me. I mean traveling via airplane alone. There will be 2stops that i need to change airplanes. First is in Amsterdam then in China and then Philippines. But i know it will be ok! ofcourse I CAN!

I am also nervous meeting my friends again.. maybe you think i am really weird now but i was thinking Sweden and Philippines are really different from each other. It's like they are in the both ends of the world. I don't know if i change that fast that me and friends will not agree on things or make jokes like before and laugh together. I am sure they will have conversations i have no idea about or the worst is i will be talking about something and then they will not get a thing because i was talking so weird. Or maybe i didn't grew and my friends just left me. What if they are already mature while i am still stuck??

WHAT IF?? WHAT IF??

STRESS + EXCITEDNESS + NERVOUSNESS = AFRAID??

always will be

Where do i start?? I know what i want to say but i just don't know how.. how to begin and how to express it in a way that you will not misunderstand what i meant by it. I guess i just want to write something... just something to write about.. it doesn't need to be meaningfull. It's enough just being like that.

Well i guess, i just want to say that i am happy right now that i don't know what to write, which one i will write about cause there are so many things that are good.. They are overflowing. And i just want to share it with you but which one? Which one is that one that i can share to you so that you can also be happy.. I am sure there is someone who can make you laugh without any effort given.. they are the best thing you have.

Ok now! I don't only mean your boyfriends or your girlfriends. I just mean someone or somebody close to you.

Just don't

Keep it and treasure it

You must remember all the things you have learned maybe you feel it's reckless and you feel like you are wasting your time in this things today but you will be thankful in the future for the times you spent sitting on a boring classroom.

I am at school again and i just felt so proud of myself right now.. i just know i can do it by myself without the help of others but i just don't dare to do it alone so this morning i tried to do it by myself i survived! and i felt really happy.. very proud and plus i was wondering what if this can help me to have a jobb in the future cause i enjoy making it actually now that i know i can do it by myself :) 

LOOK! LOOK!!

WOW!! IT WORKED! yeah i am at school right now and i am at blogger YES! it worked on my new laptop! how happy i became right now!! wiihhoooo!!



opss si dop siii...

Been long time away cause we got a problem with our connection at home.. for almost 2 months we were just using some hotspot internet from my brother's cellphone so i can't make some pot cause i can't open my blogg even when i am at school i can't even open it cause there is no google chrome and in some weird way i can't open my blogg.. well enough of explanation i am back but as always i can't still promise i will be posting  everyday but i'll try my best ;D

Saturday life..

When you are a student.. you have to grab every free time you got to finish everything that is needed to be done.. Even if it is on a Saturday! ;DD 

I will follow you!!

http://queeniee03.tumblr.com/

light as a feather

if i can just be light as a feather i will buy a bunch of ballons and just fly where ever i want without thingking of money, time and everything else.. i can escape from reality and just enjoy the view and let the wind take me where ever he would like me to go.. i can be there beside you in a minute well depends on where you are in the world (ofc.) all i want is to have time to hangout with my friends around the world..

just let it go..

There maybe sometime you felt like the whole world is againts you and everything just made your day a mess but you know what, it will come to a point you will be at the top and everyhting will come in order whatever you like thngs should be.. you have to help yourself to stand up again and fight for another day and make everyhting you van to end the day with a smile.. it maybe hard to do it but i know you can do it.. there maybe people who hurts you but you can't let go because they became a part of your life and you never want to give them up but they can't do anything good to you.. they will just hurt you so why keep on holding to them.. there are still billions of people who can make you smile... Let go of the person that makes you sad i know it's hard for some to just gave up but it will be the best for you and you will see in the end you will feel better.. You deserve to be happy and you don't need to feel guilty just because you gave up on somebody. He/She made you cry so he/she don't deserve your best..

Memo!

<3

gooo for it!

Just be yourself

Till i die

<3

I just don't care

Happy 19th

small things do matter

kissing your girlfriend in the forehead is one of the simplest,cutest and sweetest thing you can do to show how you love her.. They call it the comforting kiss. It's a kiss that can put away all of your worries and make all of it vanish in thin air. 

via: strawberry

uffffff!!

And so the sunshine came and brought some love

<3

just don't